Mark Zuckerberg's Pawn

Today was pretty shitty. When I woke up (at 11:30am btw), I was immediately sobered by the realization that I had redownloaded Instagram the night prior. I have no willpower. They design the sites to be addictive so they can “make money off my attention.” I am not sure what money there is to be made from me watching clips of The Adam Friedland Show for three hours. But I’m a pawn, and Mark Zuckerberg is my master. That is how it works. 

After that, I went on a long hike. I keep getting all of this inspiration to begin working out and getting in shape. My body type can only be described as “atrophied muscles” because, for the past 17 years, I have been avoiding physical activity like a virus or tumor. 

The hike itself wasn’t special. I wore my grey sweatpants and big “USA” sweatshirt. I looked a little bit homeless. I started talking to myself in public without realizing, and I caught some glares because of it. I haven’t spoken to anyone outside of my immediate family in weeks, so I am going insane. Cooooool.

I want to be productive so I have been putting together an album of every song I have written since like 10th grade. I cut it off there because everything from over a year ago is just noise pollution. I have like 9-10 songs right now and they aren’t great. I also don’t want them to have a background track of piano, but that is the only instrument I know how to play. Clearly, there are some big issues with this project. I hope I can eventually work it out.

My parents took my sister and I out to dinner tonight for her last night in town. It was sweet until we started arguing because I don’t have a friend group at school. They are nervous I will not have people to take pictures with at graduation. They were confused when I wanted to change the topic. Overall, I left the restaurant feeling great about myself. #awesome

When we got home, the festivities continued. We were all saying goodbye to my sister before her big trip to Europe. I hardly spoke, but my mom made me leave the room because I “bring a negative energy to everything” and I am “godless.” My feelings were sort of hurt. I shook it off though cuz I don’t gaf. 

Now I am sitting in bed and getting ready to end my night. She probably didn’t even mean the “godless” part.