Love Island and EuroTrash

I have started is listening to Love Island kind of as a background hum while I do other things in the living room. My sister watches it every day, plopped on the couch, so I am often caught in the crossfire. I don't know any of the characters names but I am kind of invested. Instead of thinking “God, this show is for losers and is made up of whores (male and female alike),” I check myself. Maybe I’m just as susceptible to trashy entertainment as everyone else. It's not a crime, but it doesn't make me feel good about myself.

My mom says Love Island is porn and my sister basically just sits in the living room and watches porn for an hour every day. It is a funny joke and I sort of agree! But, I love my sister, and she is one of many tuned in every fucking second of every day. I can't escape it.

I have also been thinking beyond the borders of my house. I went to Paris in April and I cannot see myself returning. I think that Europe has a serious work ethic deficiency. How can a whole fucking city be daydrinking at 2pm on a Wednesday? Unclear. I have not really seen the rest of Europe but it is probably the same.

Once I got past the goo-goo-ga-ga of old buildings, Europe just became a gaping hole of everything I missed about the states. I longed for shitty food and people vaping in my face on the street.

All of this EuroTrash is on my mind because my sister leaves for a two week teen tour tomorrow. She is going to Barcelona, Italy-Somewhere, and Something-France. On the other hand, I am at home all summer. I have a part-time job, while full-time focusing on my movie about the Oceangate submarine. I am not sure what I should zero in on: the fact that I was not invited on a RichKid teen tour, or that I wouldn’t have someone to invite to go with me if I had been.

I am kidding. I do not like travel, and I'm blessed that I even get to go anywhere sometimes. I just think that the disparity between me and my immediate family's summer plans is funny.

It feels like everyone I know is traveling this summer. When people ask me about my plans, I just say I am focusing on exploring my hometown of Studio City. 

??? 

Clearly code for “I am just going to fuck around and sit in my room all day.”